miscellanium's fanworks and such

title: allegiance is the strangest thing
rating: NC-17/explicit
word count: ~4900
warnings/enticements: dubcon voyeurism, selfcest
characters: dean, sam, gabriel, castiel, bobby
pairings: gabriel/sam, gabriel/gabriel, gabriel/castiel, implied dean/castiel
note: originally written in 2011 for an exchange on tumblr. reposted here so i could link it to its sequel. any revisions i made on ao3 are not reflected in this ancient word doc so enjoy the blast to my past.


summary: canon divergence that takes place after 5.19 hammer of the gods. if gabriel hadn't died, this is the way things could have gone, with his grace scattered across the midwest in the form of vardøgr.


preview: Gabriel's wearing the same clothes from the last time they saw him, purples and greens like a forest burial, the jagged puncture in his shirt just another reminder of everything that's wrong in their lives.

( The first time it happens they're driving through Wyoming. )

also on ao3. rewatching arc-v has been very inspiring. i love shingo and i love putting him through the wringer in ways that are sexy to me. shun is the show's designated whump boy. shungo suffering was inevitable.

beta read by thoudostsmile (fandom-blind). thank you so, so much.

title: tribute
rating: NC-17/explicit
word count: ~5900
warnings: extremely dubious consent, forced exhibitionism+voyeurism
preview: Sawatari had heard those words before, often before one of his rewards. The thought made him queasy. He'd never turn down Akaba's seals of approval, the bruises strung across his shoulder blades, but now? Why was everyone else here?

[set during episodes 52 and 53. before the lancers can go to synchro, akaba reiji has a test of loyalty for shingo and shun.]


( The crowd streamed out of the stadium confused but determined. )

i originally assembled this in 2016 or 2017 and got permission from ropponging on twitter (rip) to use their fanart as the cover on 8tracks (2x rip). re-sharing the mix here because i'm still proud of it and it's full of bangers. the only song on here that isn't from my personal library is track 13 - at the time it was recommended to me as a shingo song and i couldn't disagree.

one of the things that fascinates me most about shingo's character is the tension between the cool&self-confident image he tries to project (fake it 'til you make it) and his desperate need for attention&validation. whether it's something npd-adjacent or he's attention-sexual or something else, it doesn't matter. one thing that does matter is how yuuya sees him and understands him in a way nobody else does. i love dartshipping and i love you, sawatari shingo.


[DOWNLOAD LINK]

( tracklist )

my website has way too much information about maurice montgomery (i really should pare some of that down) so i haven't felt it necessary to reproduce info about him here on dreamwidth, but this newest oc is still a conceptual baby so he gets a post all to himself. some of this is copypasted from discord. content warnings for sexual harassment/assault and alcoholism.

a couple visual references: 1, 2, 3. the hair in ref 3 is too fluffy - it should be more like ringo in ref 2. still debating whether he has facial hair other than sideburns. hamish linklater (actor in the first reference) is an acceptable face claim if you need one, though the actor is definitely too tall lol.

basic outline:
american, from california probably or colorado, lay leader at a reform or reconstructionist congregation in the 1970s/80s, accused of sexual harassment. rabbi took pity on him because he was estranged from family and gave him a recommendation for placement in italy - he had distant relatives in the south there (neofiti). got started at a social center for drug addicts that was not officially affiliated with the catholic church but had connections - shared building spaces, priests would lead services for the people they were helping, etc. he'd do music therapy, teaching people how to play basic stuff. his personal instrument of choice is the saxophone but he's not especially talented with it. competent, nothing more.

the center came under financial pressure and entered into an agreement with one of the vatican secret sections (iscariot the order of st michael) to allow them to recruit members in exchange for funding. this agreement made it easier for dan to treat his clients however he liked since the order was more than happy to look the other way as long as he occasionally sent people to them.

after the kjv guard attack on the vatican at the end of 1999*, the order was forced to stop funding the social center and dan was effectively laid off when the center decided to cut music therapy from their programming and he didn't want to provide any other services with them. he had enough money saved up to just drive around, hoping to make a career as a traveling musician. he was able to earn a little bit but not enough to make a name for himself. dies in a drunken one-car accident while driving the amalfi coast.

( some elaboration )